So, why does God make me hurt so bad?
I know that He has plans for my life, and my life is already planned out for the rest of my life, but, why must I hurt so bad?
He puts a woman in my life, I get VERY interested in getting to know her, and then she just tells me one day that she has decided that she isn’t ready to date yet. She lost her husband 3 years ago, and she thought that she was over her mourning, and ready to start living her life again, but after a while, she decided that she wasn’t as ready as she thought she was.
The really bad thing is that she is always on my mind and shows up on all of my social media apps… I see her everywhere… That beautiful smile… But, I don’t know if that is God reminding me of her, and she is in my life’s plans somewhere down the road, or if the devil is just torturing me, and showing me something that I will never have.
I keep praying that God will put her back into my life, but, my prayers haven’t been answered. I lay here in bed, crying, as I cannot sleep, as my mind is just racing. I can never get it to calm down to the point of getting over 3 hours of sleep a night. I have prayed that God will take all of my burdens, all of my worries, all of my anxieties, and let me place them at His feet for Him to deal with as He sees fit, but, every day they are still in my mind.
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